INFERTILITY

Written by Robyn Spring

Growing up all I wanted to be, was a mum. I wasn’t interested in a career. I just wanted to get married and have children.

In my late teens I was diagnosed with Polysistic Ovarian Syndrome and was then aware of the effects of Polysistic Ovarian Syndrome and the greater chance of infertility.

I met my husband whom I married in 1996 at the age of 21, with the knowledge we may never have children, so he was aware from the beginning. He accepted that and never put pressure on me. For which I am very grateful.

We had been married for a few years and I really loved my job, but my desire of having a family and not knowing if I could, weighed on my shoulders. I had to decide what was more important – job or family, to me it was family.

We started trying and after months with no news, we began searching for remedies, I saw doctor after doctor, trying hormone creams, etc, I finally saw a lovely lady doctor who was fabulous. She ran tests and didn’t delay in sending us on to a specialist. I finally felt we were on the right road! Someone finally wanting to help us, I mean, really help us! We were finally being taken more seriously!

It was a hard time, especially as a woman. I went through a stage where I struggled with womanhood, I felt I lacked being a woman because I couldn’t conceive children. I tried to be more womanly outwardly to compensate.

We didn’t tell anyone we were trying we just kept telling everyone we weren’t ready, when really my heart was aching. It was just easier to fob it off, than to have all the questions and explanations.

I so longed for a baby and the thought that it might not happen was my greatest fear. I envied other pregnant women, wishing that it was me.

We saw the specialist, who ran a lot more tests. It seemed like years, going through the process, having tests and waiting for the results, going back to the specialist and having more tests and so on.

The end result was that I wasn’t ovulating. Our next step was a fertility drug called “Clomid”, this was going to help my body to ovulate. First we had to do more tests, because I had to have a particular dosage and take it on particular days of my cycle for it to work. For a couple of months it was a trial and error scenario, blood tests after blood tests, adjusting days and amounts. Still with no conception. The specialist had booked me in to have a Laparoscopy to see what else was going on. The next stage being IVF.

Finally, on my final month of Clomid, and prior to my Laporoscopy appointment, I conceived! When the pregnancy was confirmed, I balled! I was so happy! Finally, finally, it had happened!

March, 2001 our baby was born, 3 weeks early and weighed in at 6p 13oz.

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